A letter that was written on March 20, 1994, made my mind up that I was falling with this man. I wanted to be more serious in my letters and ask him questions that were very important to me if, I am that woman he wanted in his life. We spoke on the phone many times and have idea now of what we sounded like and SEEMED to get along very well and have our conversations that mattered to us both, so I thought. And the ball was rolling "we" both are falling.
Falling in love? I was "inlove" and he was ready to marry at all cost.
"Dearest Rowena, ( My name is Rowena)
My thoughts have been of you alone. It is true that since we talked on the phone you have filled my life completely. (Knew the meaning of what these statement meant now)
I never expected to react so quickly and completely to anyone.
(Of course)
Never in my life I have ever felt such a mixture of emotions, hopes, fears, and self examination.
(No joke) I know it sounds crazy but I really feel well, you must understand, all my life I have wanted to meet a woman like you, and I must carefully examine my heart and soul to be sure that I can be the best man for you." (written to me)
WOW, Reading this after 24 Years it made sense. He took his old time to wait for the one who can be controlled so easily away from civilization! Hundred years backwards, outhouse and all, that's how we lived. About hundred feet away from a constant reconstruction of this and that all the years.
"A man who shares his thoughts to examine his heart and soul to be the best he can be for me, Is what won my heart. I knew that I have found who is the one for me".
My Gullible Self with out my mind thinking only my heart. And it's fascinating the growth I have that I now realized, I never questioned his mind!
Young naive, gullible, away from any family protection. Nonetheless, respect, morals, and family still stands in my value. My parents thought me well.
Falling in love? I was "inlove" and he was ready to marry at all cost.
"Dearest Rowena, ( My name is Rowena)
My thoughts have been of you alone. It is true that since we talked on the phone you have filled my life completely. (Knew the meaning of what these statement meant now)
I never expected to react so quickly and completely to anyone.
(Of course)
Never in my life I have ever felt such a mixture of emotions, hopes, fears, and self examination.
(No joke) I know it sounds crazy but I really feel well, you must understand, all my life I have wanted to meet a woman like you, and I must carefully examine my heart and soul to be sure that I can be the best man for you." (written to me)
WOW, Reading this after 24 Years it made sense. He took his old time to wait for the one who can be controlled so easily away from civilization! Hundred years backwards, outhouse and all, that's how we lived. About hundred feet away from a constant reconstruction of this and that all the years.
"A man who shares his thoughts to examine his heart and soul to be the best he can be for me, Is what won my heart. I knew that I have found who is the one for me".
My Gullible Self with out my mind thinking only my heart. And it's fascinating the growth I have that I now realized, I never questioned his mind!
Young naive, gullible, away from any family protection. Nonetheless, respect, morals, and family still stands in my value. My parents thought me well.
my dearest Weng,
ReplyDeleteI sit here, far from you and the children, and I am comforted by the love I feel reading your blog! In these hard times financially for all families it becomes ever more clear what a fine choice I made in marrying you - you have grown to be a strong, resourceful and loving wife and mother. I continue to love and appreciate you more every day. A World Of Love darling Weng.
your man
Wow! Weng!! I love the way that you are sharing!
ReplyDeleteJorge